Thursday, October 8, 2009

The Times That Try Men's Souls

This is a new experience for me and I approach it with some trepidation. My life and heart are so full and I am so grateful for the Lord's blessings to me. My children have been on my mind a lot of late, especially with Becca finally able to implant her last embryos. I know how deep her desire to keep this promise has been. I also know that timing hasn't made it easy. I couldn't help thinking of her Tuesday as I was teaching and I knew that she was finally implanting. My class has been studying the Revolutionary War and as a part of the unit we analyze Thomas Paine's The American Crisis I. This time it has a universal meaning and seems so poignant as I watch the world around us and ponder how my children and grandchildren will navigate its evils.

I dedicate this piece to Becca and all the young parents that daily make the unpopular choices on behalf of future generation. (I love you Bec)

The Times that Try Men's Souls
These are the times that try men's souls. The summer soldier and the sunshine patriot will, in this crisis, shrink from the service of his country; but he that stands it NOW, deserve the love and thanks of man and woman. Tyranny, like hell, is not easily conquered; yet we have this consolation with us, that the harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph. What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly:-- 'Tis dearness only that gives every thing its value. Heaven knows how to set a proper price upon its goods; and it would be strange indeed, if so celestial an article as FREEDOM should not be highly rated.
. . .My secret opinion has ever been, and still is; that GOD Almighty will not give up a people to military destruction, or leave them unsupportedly to perish, who had so earnestly and so repeatedly sought to avoid the calamities of war, by every decent method which wisdom could invent.


In our times I am sure God Almighty will not give up a people to destruction and the calamities of this generation who cherishes His children and protects the family. It really takes courage and strength not to shrink from the demands of this day, but future generations will reverence those who try. I am proud of and grateful for all of my children but this day I salute Becca.

Love Mom

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Baseball playoffs starts.... Ho, hum!

This use to be a magical time of the year but it is really quite a ho, hum deal.... I will watch the Angels with care, but if they lose I don't really care what happens.... I have felt this way since the baseball union struck in 1994 and we didn't have a World Series.... I learned that there is life beyond baseball.... I officiated a game that Joshua was going to do before he went to see the Dodgers in the playoffs.... He went with Bruce Galler.... My game was Vasquez at Knight High School... It was a lousy game but I made about 110 dollars..... Night

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Weird prayer!

I officiated a game at Paraclete which is a Catholic high school.... Before the game started they had a prayer.... There were some really fun loving fanatics in the stand and while the guy was praying he looked up and was talking about this group in his prayer and while he was still praying they started yelling and screaming.... Then they stopped and said all at once in the name of the Father, and the Son, and the Holy Spirit.... It was really strange to me who has witness many prayers in public before.... I am really unhappy with my class and yet they are doing well but I just don't want them slipping into a bad class.... I am riding them and I am not sure if it more me than them.... I can't believe how the government wants to enter my classroom with all these interuptions in the name of providing a better program... They want to move the weaker students to all these different teachers and programs.... I have a great relationship with them and they are learning and changing there habits and the government wants to mandate things to me.... I can't stand it and I wish the church would allow us to leave the public system so we can just flat out teach but it just isn't going to happen yet so I have to make it do.....

Monday, October 5, 2009

I'm tired...

This is keeping the commandments journal entry.... I know that the Lord is happy with us keeping a journal, but all I can say for today is that I am very tired.... Night

Sunday, October 4, 2009

I'm a little embarrassed....

When I saw Dr. See my eye specialist I found out that I am doing better than I did the last time I saw him... I think he tried to make me feel better by saying that sickness my center around my left eye because I lay on my left side.... All I know is that is probably a bunch of bunk, but I am thankful that I am okay and that my imagination can relax for awhile.... Sorry, if I caused any of you to be concern over me.... That was a great conference and I really enjoyed Elder Hollands talk.... Night...

Strange experience last night.....

Josh and I went to the West Coast Baptist College in Lancaster last night to officiate a volleyball game... Any person who has morals would have to be thoroughly impressed with the student body that showed up for the game.... The place was packed with female students who wore dresses and skirts which went below their knee and that was true for every woman... The young men looked and acted with a wonderful morality that could be admired by anyone who believes in those things... They cheered wildly for their team but never showed any disrespect towards the opposing team or officials... And yet if it would have been announced that the officials are active members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints I guarantee that there would have been an immediate change in the aura of the gym.... Why?..... It is simple, these people are blinded by satan (I do not capitalize the name satan) in a way that is more powerful than any other use of this power and he does have an abundance of different ways to blind men from the true teachings of Jesus Christ.... You can hear Nephi saying,"Whoa, unto him that will say all is well in Zion, yea, all is well".... I love these people though because they do love Jesus Christ and will stand up against all of the Anti-Christ that exists today to fight against Lord's teaching.... We are on the same team but our leaders are different.... Now, I am going to sound harsh at times, but I am harsh towards the leaders and yet even they I hope, has the heart to want to do right but are just fooled by the precepts of man.... And yet if their heart screams filthy lucre as their motive then I am very critical of them.... How can people who really believe and love the Savior refuse to read the Book of Mormon.... It doesn't make sense, except again we see the power of satan, it is amazing to me.... The Book of Mormon would be a book of scripture that would inspire them to new heights as it testifies of Jesus along with the Bible.... But, I wish they would read the Bible with an open heart and mind.... The Lords church has the foundation of Apostles and Prophets.... It teaches that there is 3 heavens.... It tells us that there is baptism for everyone and the way that this can be done is by baptism for the dead.... The Bible teaches us that revelation is a necessary part of the gospel plan.... We know that the Lord had other sheep which was not part of the old world fold but another one and they would hear His voice and know it.... The Old Testament makes clear that there are special teachings that are not generally taught but is taught in a place like a tabernacle in those days and a temple in our day.... In reality these good people I was with last night really don't want anything more than what the Terrestrial Kingdom will offer.... In the Terrestrial Kingdom they will dwell with Jesus Christ.... They will be able to dwell with other honorable people just like they were doing last night.... They are not interested in Eternal Families or marriage.... They accept this fate and seem to be happy with it.... Now, this is my doctrine and I do not speak for the church, but I wonder sometimes if they did not seek this glory when they were in the premortal life (which they do not believe in at this time) and not wanting the weight of glory that comes from the Celestial Kingdom.... Let's not fool ourselves who seek the Celestial Glory, that kingdom lends to hard work, suffering, trial of patience and endless glory that we cannot comprehend, but our Father in Heaven had to endure 1/3 of His spirit children reject His plan.... Then he needs to experience many of His children who did take upon them the flesh to do outrageous sins on His faithful and innocent children.... No wonder he rejoices with His children who are faithful and no wonder His Spirit is in great abundance during our visits to the temple.... I love my fellow Christians but like in the Premortal life and now, I plead with them to accept the fullness of Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ teachings and allow the Holy Ghost to bear witness of these truths to their souls... I know that the blessings that come from baptism and going to the Temple will be worth whatever trial that I will need to endure... Please, my friends do not shrink from the greater glory that you can receive.... My Christian friends live in a light of the gospel in a sense, but they need to enter the dark and be tried really tried by the adversary and to stand up for Jesus under the worst of conditions to fully understand our Savior and be able to enjoy the Eternal light of the fullness of the Gospel.... Night...

Thursday, October 1, 2009

I'm still not feeling wel....

I am getting through the day alright.... I had parent-teacher conference and I saw parents for about 3 hours and I did a volleyball game but I have to admit that I am anxious to see Dr. See my eye specialist.... This is the problem of keeping a daily journal because you put down things that will probably be stupid by next week.... I have to admit that Janice Stowers my principal has been very kind to me through this ordeal... Taylor is now on Face Book and she is really communicating with her friends... I personally find the sight very adolescent and blogs have more meat to it... Oh, we get silly on blogs but we don't say stupid things like, "I am going to the store" but I hope my daughter enjoys her new found freedom and doesn't do anything stupid.... Night